It started with all the fertility treatments. The countless hormones, diet changes, supplements, etc. Then you add in carrying twins, a c section and nursing twins for 9 months and this body is unrecognizable. My skin is way jigglier (is that even a word?) than it used to be, I have dimples in places I never thought possible and I am hanging on to about 20 pounds of this baby weight that needs to go. I have given myself grace in this season of nursing because I have had to maintain a good amount of calorie intake to keep my supply up. But ya’ll, my craving for sweets is out of control. I haven’t eaten a real Oreo in probably 10 years and I have eaten more than I can even count in the last 9 months. What in the world?? Anyways, as I am thinking about starting to wean, I am finally ready to focus on myself. But here’s the thing, I hate working out (thanks mom!) and I love all the bad things to eat (thanks dad!). I know I can do it though. Did you know I haven’t had a soft drink in 4 years? RIP Diet DP… I still miss you. I gave it up four years ago when we went through IVF the first time. I had to get off caffeine and just decided not to drink them anymore. I also gave up caffeine for over a year with the second round of IVF and then pregnancy. That was hard, but I did it. So I know I can do it if I set my mind to it.
Because life and work feel a bit overwhelming right now and there never seems to be enough hours in the day, it stresses me out to think about doing something hard core or something that I have to track continuously throughout the day. I want my goals to be doable, realistic and manageable. So, I am starting small. I am starting by committing to going to a work out class 3-4 times a week and walking the other days. I am really loving Purvelo (cycle) and Pure Barre Empower for all my local people. And then I am cutting out all sweets. Just like that. Bye Oreos and ice cream and cookies and milk shakes. I will miss you. I am also committing to not snack. Eat 3 meals a day and if I am starving in between I am allowing myself to have fruit.
I am sure I will have to do something more extreme to get the final few pounds off because those have been lingering for a while. For now, I think this will give me a good jump start to this whole weight loss thing. I will keep you updated and accept all the encouragement. Hanging this little number on the fridge to remind me of the good ole days and keep me motivated to press on.
Lots of love,